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1. Looks like I am actually going to finish 'The Seance', the 48-page Danielle 'n Shard comic which has been consuming most of my artistic time of late. Finished to page 38, woo! If I still LIKE my charas after this, it will be a miracle, but I'd better since 2 more stories are already scripted. It isn't a problem yet; they are fun to mess with. Go me with the accomplishment thing. I'll probably post it to FA page-a-week style when it's done, but I don't want to until it is done.

2. Kestrel and Lucy are still moving to Covelo, without me for the time being at least. This still sucks with much hurtiness. However, I am adjusting, and there are some aspects of life which have sweetened the situation to varying degrees. This is one of those difficult times that could only possibly happen with poly, and possibly also a situation wherein one or more of the relationships wouldn't have survived if I weren't poly. Go me with the bizzare-yet-still-functioning life thing. Also, right at this moment? I miss all of my People-I-Snuggle-With, dammit. None are here, and I want all of them. Not at the same time, but still.

3. Virtual pets. Whaaat? They're cute! Especially Okkie. <3

Current Mood: melancholy

Kestrel and Lucy went to Yosemite and all I got were these...

...actually, these are some pretty darn sweet coyote pics! So yes, 2 of my sweeties went to Yosemite for a short pack trip. While there, they spotted a couple of God's Dogs sniffing around in the parking lot, chillin', doin' that Coyote Thang. Of course, being a great lover of all things coy, I was thrilled to get these, and equally of course all of you <3 coyotes too, because how couldn't you, really, so I am sharing. I saw one in the Ansel Adams high country last summer, but he never got close enough to get good photos of...not being habituated to humans, he saw us and split.

( These cuties stuck around, though )
I have this feeling that I ought to say a few words about polyamory here; there's got to be a long, thoughtful exploration of jealousy and compersion and the way personal growth is often what happens when you're looking in the other direction. But let's keep it short. Am I a little sad that the spice went on a trip without me? A bit, of course. Am I sad that the triad dynamic between us three just doesn't go as deep as between all 3 pairs, one result of which is that things like major journeyings are best done in pairs? Well, it is certainly getting a lot easier. Did I enjoy going to the city and listening to awesome punk/Celtic fusion with the new lady I am unexpectedly courting? Hell yes. Am I looking forward to the pack trip Kestrel and I are planning? ...are you kidding?! Does Tiger like to claw things?! More seriously, did my flexibility in this benefit my relationships with both of them and the cohesion of our triad? Yes. Very much so.

What I think I'm trying to say is this: in my experience, we usually enter into relationships with some kind of preconceived ideal of what we want, what we're looking for, and what will make us happy. People grow and change, and relationships can be like chemical reactions with unknown compounds: what you get may really surprise you. Often as not, it may, uh, diverge a bit from your ideal. At that point, we have some choices: we can get out of the situation and try again, or we can explore what is and see what we can do with it. In a changing environment, the adaptable creature flourishes best: ask any coyote.

And sometimes, exploring unexpected terrain, we find kinds of blooming gardens we never dreamed of.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Breathe, Prodigy

Triad pics! Feel free to ignore, but they are pretty cute.

These were taken by the documentary people. Yes, the documentary is here...if you're in Britan, look for a show called "Polygamous Wives". I haven't figured out how to get it on YouTube yet, but when it's done, the links will be posted.

Other than the bad title (it's polyamory, dammit!!!!) it's a very neat show and I'm quite pleased with it...I'll hold off on any more detailed commentary until it's available on line, but it kinda...idealized us, a little. Only because one of the other 2 families involved was really scary, probably.

At any rate, there are photos, and I'm thrilled by that because we don't have very many of all three of us.

Speaking of poly...yeah, things are going pretty well around here, although it is a heck of a lot of work. I've been contemplating this a fair bit recently, and I'm of the opinion that, at least in my situation, loving and being in relationship with more than one person has created major benefits in all of the relationships. It's pretty neat. My relating-to-people skills, never my best thing as those of you who have known me for awhile will no doubt attest, have certainly seen more development and improvement in the 3+ years I've been poly than they did in twice that before. And, emotionally anyhow, I've *always* been poly; my love has never been mutually exclusive. So in a way it seems more authentic.

...even if poly is going in directions I never thought it would. Woah, NRE. And Spring.

( My triad, we is cute as fluffy bunnies )